Jitters

I still get em. I'd feel like something was wrong if I didn't. Before performances, before interviews and especially before releases. I have a ritual where I listen to the project straight through as if I was the listener. I try to feel what they are gonna feel and think what they'll think while listening to this new piece of art I have to offer. I don't get scared they won't like it (they being the world), but I just get nervous because I bet a lot on myself every go round. I feel like every project has the potential to be "the one". So I try to hear what will separate this project from the last one. With that being said, "Where Is the Lie?" feels different than "If I Should Die...". IISD feels like a dream. It feels like a bunch of "what ifs" and questions whereas WITL sounds very self-assured and matter-of-fact. I feel like I do a pretty go job of putting songs together and there were songs I wanted to put on this new project that I had to make myself hold onto for something else. I like having jitters because it lets me know that I still care. I write, produce and engineer my own sound so it is literally hand crafted and I really care about what I do so to think of it being heard is still scary, but in a good way. I'm ready. By the time you read this the new project will be out on all major streaming platforms for the world to enjoy and all I can do is sit and think of how far I've come. Praise G-d!